They woke me up again last night.
Even though I've severely limited my meetings with people - if they can't harass me at work - due to the fact that I don't work, they can't harass me among people - due to the fact that I'm not dating anyone, even though they'll come into my sleep...
the difference is that:
Even a fewer years ago, erstwhile I woke up, I identified them and, for example, a dream about a watch in a drawer, there was 1 specified a bum that I saw him on the street and Pervert, which turned out to be the boss of a bunch - Jack Puck, it was erstwhile that clown in that dream walked so happy with himself, smiled to himself stupidly, joked about how this pervert utilized to be, and present - he is severely depressed in these dreams
I'm being harassed, I've got no life, and the fool who's liable is depressed... suffers that I can't be broken, due to the fact that that's the kind of head I've got chained...
There's a script going on in this dream, and it's going on and on, and at the end of it, there's a clown, and he's making a gesture, and he's starting to wonder, due to the fact that I admit this motion as something familiar, and I start to remember, and I remember what happened in my life, and then I realize that I'm dreaming that it's not reality, and I wake up, and I most likely won't sleep till morning, so I sit down and write
Sometimes it's a couple of days in a row.
So all these harassments are done in riddles and kind of from hiding.
Has anything changed over the past fewer years?
Well, I guess it's just that clown's depressed...
I haven't determined anything else, that's most likely permanent 5 people, or 5 personalities - if it's Si simulating all of them, I can't rather find it.
Sometimes you occasionally come up with any another "personality"
If all of this is produced by Si, it's so well done that in fact it's indistinguishable from people, these 5 people I separate due to the fact that they usage the same grimaces, words, phrases, behavior
Just like I erstwhile didn't realize how they do it, that they're setting strangers random people against me, like in a coffee shop, and now I'm able to figure it out beautiful rapidly that they're "just" switched
But not always, sometimes it takes a while
I'm all alone with all this, no one's helping me, so I'm just relying on what I see.
Every day is unpredictable and there's always something that can happen and happens, so I haven't truly been alone for years.
I got sick, went to the doctors and couldn't find a diagnosis, erstwhile they said it was all right, and erstwhile it was an inflammatory condition, and erstwhile it was from my spine... in the meantime, I picked something up in that garden, but not much, after 2 years individual pulled the lavender that I planted the period earlier, so the garden yet gave up and after a fewer months - it stopped hurting - everything went distant - everything went away
I don't go in the yard, there's no reason to bother me...
In six months my knees started to hurt - it's most likely due to the fact that I was walking for my wellness and failure of weight ... again I'm walking for doctors and nothing - go on walking... then again my tummy pain came back somewhere in 2016-2018, but my knees stopped hurting, after half a year of diet I stopped hurting my tummy - my legs hurt again...
They're always making things up, present I'm trying to push all the problems away, even the tiny ones.
it's been like this all my life - they've been secretly putting my leg on my feet my full life
In fact, my biggest concern is, how large the scale was replaced during and after the war...
Right Eye: Fort Detrick - Dreaming, Brainwashing
Right Eye: Possession and Sleep
